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Name: Tamara
Birthday: 12/2/1976
Gender: Female
Interests: bowling, dancing, hanging out with friends, reading, writing, chatting on-line, reality tv (American/Canadian Idol, Amazing Race, The Bachelor, among others that I can't seem to think of), TLC tv
Occupation: Cafeteria Worker
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: oiler_chic@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  tamara_noelle@yahoo.ca
Member Since:
7/26/2007
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| Why?
I
was going to blog about something else. I find I often don't write from
the heart, or from something about me, or my life, it's usually just
about things I get emailed to me and such. My intent was to write
something about me, and my life, my goings on etc but I feel like I
have something more pressing that I need to be blogging about right
now, so here goes.
*takes a deep breath*
Are you ever
finding yourself asking God the question "Why?" I know I have, and
yesterday was another moment where I was asking God, "why?" We often
don't know the answer to that question, and sometimes He won't answer
it in our life time. We do know that, or I know that God has a reason
for everything under the sun, and a purpose, but...God, why??? I don't
understand how you could allow this to happen. I despise the word
'cancer'. *sighs* The reason I"m saying all this is because a friend of
mine sent me a message on facebook yesterday telling me about someone
from my church who just found out that he has a tumour in his brain and
it is malignant. Now, this fellow with the tumour is not a dear friend
of the family or is 'close' to me persay, but nonetheless, it's still
very serious. This fellow has taught me bible and art all through
junior high. He's only 50 years old (just turned 50 this summer), is a
loving and caring husband, and a wonderful father to 4 children, and a
grandfather of 2. His wife took him into the ER this week because he
was experiencing headaches alot and they ran some tests and found the
tumour and that it is malignant. He is to undergo some more testing
this week, and decisions will have to be made about radiation,
chemotherapy etc. *braces herself*. This next part is the kicker of it
all: HE IS ONLY GIVEN A FEW MONTHS TO LIVE!!!!
Oh my fricken goodness. What is going on here??? God, why? I don't
understand! I know there are lots of things in life that we don't
understand. God knows what He is doing here, but it still doesn't mean
I like it or understand it. I guess it's part of life, sadly. We all
have a time when our life on this earth is done, and we move onto being
with Him in glory. Now, with that all sad, prayer is very powerful and
we all know what our God is capable of doing. He still performs
miracles today. So I'm asking you...begging you, to please keep this
man and his family in your prayers. They desperately need them. God is
the ultimate healer, and has proven doctors wrong before, so why not
now right? This family was in church today, I saw them. I didn't say
anything to them though, I didn't know what to say. I hate it when that
happens. When I feel like I ought to go up and say something to someone
yet, I have no words, and I realize words aren't always needed, but
still. I could not look at this family without getting teary-eyed. This
man who is diagnosed with a maignant brain tumour was still smiling in
church. WOW, that took my breath away. Amazing! God is good! God is our
Healer and Provider.
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| Welp, it's been a long time folks. I kinda forgot about xanga and have been to into facebook, myspace and xianz. The last blog I wrote here I mentioned something about going on a date, well that never happened. Things came up, things happened. We're just friends now, and I'm completely okay with that. At first I was pretty upset, and hurt but I'm okay now. We still talk, just when he's online which isn't that often. He's busy, he has his own life, he has a girlfriend, I'm happy for him - I really am. Not much is new with me really. Same old - same old. I attended a wedding out of town back at the beginning of summer and had a blast, I danced the night away. Yeah. Go me! My family didn't think I was such a dancer, boy did I prove them all wrong.    I have mostly just worked off and on this summer. I didn't work the first 3 weeks of the summer because I normally work at a school cafeteria and because well..there was no school of course it was hard to work there, lol, but they have business locations and they didn't call me the first 3 weeks and now I've been off for a week again. Doesn't really bother me much. I'm still living at home, but hope to plan to move out some time soon. Other than that, not much is really new with me. My best friend is coming into town tomorrow so I'm pretty excited to see her. Life is life, just trying to take it as it comes. God is always good. Not much else to report. I hope to write here more often, if I don't forget about it. LOL
 Tams
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He's amazing! He's a christian and a few years younger than me - he's 26. I'll have to post here and give you an update on how things go! 
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